It's my only chance to go back to a time and place I dearly wish I could have seen.
I model a 3-footer line, a fictional branch line of it, anyway. It takes place in the valley in which both of my parents grew up, when they were kids. Oh, how I'd have loved to have met and talked with my grandfather (a WW1 vet who'd had a hard life, a quick temper and was not to be trifled with, but who had a great sense of humor and dearly loved his family, I'm told) and oldest uncle (a transport/bomber pilot in WW2 who sadly died flying plane in the 50s). And to ride on a now ghost railroad that lives only in photos and memories.
Everyone has that one place/time they'd go to if someone showed up with a time machine and said, "Only one trip, ever. Choose." For me, it'd be to board a ET&WNC passenger train at Johnson City, TN and ride it all the way to Boone, NC and back. My layout takes place before a nightmarish storm wiped out a lot of that, but to ride the parts I've read about (and visited the remains of, decades later) in that timeframe? Man, what I'd give to do that just once.
My layout is as close as I'll ever get. When I walk into the room, I'm there. I've wanted this for almost all my life and I can't believe sometimes it's in that room. There are times I'll walk in there, and almost tear up just thinking about what it means to me, both for what it represents and what the physical structure of the layout itself means to me. Not only that, other than wiring, the curtains (thanks again, honey!) and track work, I did every single bit of it by myself. It's the greatest sense of accomplishment I've ever felt other than the day I pinned on my LT bars for the Army, all those years ago.
The only regret I have, one I have no control over, is that my aging parents (who will not fly or be in a car for more than a couple hours and live on the opposite corner of the continent) will never get to see it in person. I've never told them the crushing disappointment of knowing that (and I never will), but I must admit it's hard to think of sometimes, because in a way, I built it for them. Almost like the baseball field in "Field of dreams," I thought I was just building it for me, but now I realize that really wasn't the point.
Much like people declare once they have kids (a joy my wife and I were denied), they never realize how much they'd really mean to them, I never thought this layout would mean as much as it does, both for what I've done as well as what it represents.
It's cheesy, but it's true.