I'm not meaning to be maudlin or anything. I am actually quite happy about this.
I was standing at the head of the stairs this morning, looking at my train layout, when I realized it was as big and as much as I can handle.
I think it is natural to dream about more room for your trains, and most important, room for more trains. My layout is big by some standards but smaller than several local ones I've visited - only a fraction of the size of one just a few miles from me. I had always dreamed about knocking out some walls and expanding. But I realized this morning that that will never happen, and that it would me a mistake if I let it happen.
After five years, I have a little over 50% of the scenery "done" (but as always, subject to revision). Nearly half isn't even started. A sixth of the track is not permanent - I'm still unsure of exactly where I want it. Meanwhile, I spend so much time maintaining and fine-tuning the 50% that is done that my rate of completing the rest has slowed. And the list of projects I want to undertake is growing, not shrinking.
My first train layout ('56) was on a door that rolled under my bed. Over the years, I've had ever bigger ones -- always better, too. But this layout is the final one: as big as it needs to be and as "better" as it will ever get. I'm 63 and I still working full time. In a few years I'll shift to part time and gradually reduce that to zero, so as I grow older I will have more time for other things, including my trains. But I also feel myself slowing down. I will finish all of this layout, and then continue to have fun just maintaining it. Any larger, and I think it would become a pain, requiring so much time to maintain I would never have time for interesting projects, etc.
Dale Carnegie said, “Success is getting what you want; happiness is wanting what you get." This layout is successful at making me happy.
I guess it just boils down to realizing that is really what you want . . .